For the one I'm not supposed to hate

I'm not good enough at making poetic words
I'm not good enough at doing something romantic
I don't even say a thing at Mother's Day
I know it. you know it

You may conclude it as no care or nonchalant
You may see me as devil-may-care girl
You may think I give you the cold shoulder

but you have to know,
I never hate you.
I always feel guilty after saying bad things about you to my friends
I sometimes envy them who can spend time with their mother
I sometimes envy them who can live normally with their family
I'm looking forward to your coming at my graduation day

Here, I'm not gonna say I wasn't wrong
Nor show angelic face to get dad's attention
I was and am wrong
I did and do mistakes
I'm sorry and I want to fix this

Please.
for you're the person I love

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